Christmas eve already??

I can't believe tommorow's christmas eve already. I wasn't really waiting for christmas so it kinda feels like it came sooner than before. There's still a x-mas atmosphere but different, even better I think, more calm and less expectations, it'll make the holiday more full.
Anyways just had to wish you all

MERRY CHRISTMAS
and
HAPPY NEW YEAR

I hope everyones well and that your holiday's swell!

Do we do what we want or just want what we do?!

Does anyone do what they truly want? I was talking to a friend about it a couple o'days ago and it got me thinking. At first I thought 'No. I guess no one really does whatever they want, we're all limited by our circumstances', but then you think how many of us know what we actually want anyway? and how do we know that when we do/get what we want we won't want something else?
We want the idea that we'll finally get 'there' because we need the motivation to make this existence interesting, but at the same time we don't want to reach that point of contentment cause what will come next?! We keep on aiming higher and higher and try to do the best we can with every day that comes, doing life one step at a time.
So, in small increments some of us actually do what we truly want and to some extent our choice of actions will always be limited because we don't live alone here, and as decent human beings we try to adapt our wants with others.
Anyways, I'm off to do something I really want to do right now, watch Tv.

Harry Potter and the Half-blood Prince

I just saw the news, the 6th Harry Potter book will be on sale June 16th next year. Yeay!!!!

Rant......rant.......rant......

You know how people sometimes say "no offense" in a conversation, I absolutely hate it when people say that to me. Am I the only one who sees how insulting it is?
First of all it puts you in the spot.
Secondly, it's condesending, cause when someone says that to you they are assuming that you will be offended by whatever they're going to say and actually feel the need to state a "disclaimer" before they say it, like you're some kind of idiot.
Obviously I never say "no offense" to anyone cause I do not want anyone to say it to me. It might be ridiculous but I don't care, people should never assume anything about anybody, I doubt that it's ever appreciated by anyone.
So please keep this in mind, because those words always pisses me off and I really don't want to be annoyed at anyone for saying it to me.

Also, never compare people. I know we all do it but it's just so wrong, because we're all soo different. We constantly compare ourselves with others that we're never happy. Of course there's always going to be someone better but it shouldn't matter, cause we're the best in our own category.
My one of a kind category that no one else in the world can qualify.

Finally, I don't know how much of a rant this is, it's more like a comment I guess. Lately I forgot why I started this blog and I started to always want comments and feedback for my posts to get more motivation to write them. Then I remembered how thats soo besides the point of all this. This was supposed to be a way for me to share my thoughts without the hassle of feeling the constant need of feedback that I get when I write emails. Anyways, now that I've rediscovered my true intentions of this blog, I'm having even more fun writing cause I'm not dependant on feedback.

End of rants.

Dead woman walking

It's 2.30 AM and I just finished sending x-mas cards. It would've been such a chore if I'd just did it long time ago but as always I left everything to the last minute (technically it's not last minute cause it's the 19th, but in my "long story" circumstances it is).
Don't get me wrong though, just cause I'm tired and hungry doesn't make the greetings less heartfelt, so to those who receive one from me, forget all my ramblings here.

Oh a movie tip before I forget. I saw Garden State today and boy was that a great usage of my money and time. It's been quite a while since I've seen a good movie, that really made me feel something you know?! Lately I've been feeling numb at random times and it's nice to feel moved occasionally.
PS: My apologies to a certain mighty pirate out at sea for not witnessing this event in her company.

Speaking of movies, CACTUS.Inc has begun the first stages of the fourth installment of our productions. The writing process is progressing quickly and filming will begin as soon as the casts circumstances are permitting. Which is hopefully soon, since our deadline is mid-january. So to all of you who consider yourself a member of the CACTUS.Inc cast please contact AK or me A.S.A.P. And to all you fans (haha,I know) out there, expect "Together again" (working title) coming your way February 2005.

I wish I had somethig wise or remotely witty to close this post tonight but I'm beat and dried, so this is me sayin Toodaloo and I'll c ya tommorow!

Lynch day afternoon

Felt like I was in "Mullholland" today. Nothing was out of the ordinary but something was different. Like when you have a fever and you're not quite there, except I was wide awake, consious, and totally aware. Maybe that was the problem, that I was too aware (if it makes sense at all). Now I'm home writing and, being the night owl that I am ;), feels like the day has just begun and I can get things done.
First off, I didn't now only registered folk can comment on the posts, that sucks! What if we're missing out on a lot of feedback just because people don't feel like registering?!
Secondly, did y'all see the new feature? Words of the day? Down right there under the archives. At first I was gonna posts recipes but I'd have to write too much, hehe...... So words it was, I'm calling it that cause it would include poems, quotes, or just a simple line, etc. I'd update it everyday of course, until I get tired and it'll be "Words of the week" and so on...
Btw, as some might notice, or not, I deleted the Safin post. No xplanation needed actually, I just deleted it and thats that. So really this sentence was just a waste of time and space.
CHAO

Twinkle* twinkle* little me

Turned on some holiday tunes and now I've finally finished decorating the christmas tree. Yeay!!!
I know it's been more than 36 hours since I started to do it, you gotta understand the labor that comes with decorating. The lighting alone took me a couple of hours to do, or was it only an hour?? -confused-
The point is, it felt like forever to get it perfect and I'm not one to label myself a "perfectionist" but I have this need to get everything exactly the way I want it. Although there are times when frustration kicks in and I am forced to settle for 99,8% out of the 110% that I strive for.
Anyways, I took a picture of my beautiful tree as you can see below. Unfortunately my cell's camera couldn't take a good picture of the lights and all the ornaments, so the result kinda looks like a water color painting.

Stupid Internet Xplorer!!

So I did all this work on the blog right and I did it in Safari (Mac.'s webbrowser) and it turned out great.
Then when I opened the blog with internetXplorer some of the photos didn't come out, the footer wasn't at the footer, and some of the fonts were messed up! Where did all my personalization go?!
I sure hope it's not like that in PC's internet xplorer cause otherwise my work's wasted.

Aargh!!!

HTMLxhausted!

Hello my fellow beginner bloggers!! u know who u r!! and Hello to the awakened tonight......
I'm trying to find an inspiration for an inspiring post but nothing comes to mind right now. I'm too exhausted from personalizing my blog all day long, alright mayb not all day, but a chunk of time for sure. It's not mind-blowing but I'm satisfied for now, the pretty flowers, fonts and colors. (Note:I took those pics myself, hehe...)
What do u guys think? Nice ey?! Btw, I remember what mannagryn's called in english: semoulina, incase anyone's wondering.
Anyways, is everyone getting into the christmas spirit by now? I think most of us are brainwashed by this holiday.
Ex: here in Sweden, on the first advent (or for none christmas celebrators: the sunday 4 weeks before xmas) suddenly you see this triangle light thing in every window, in every household all over the place. This happens every year on the clock.
Freaky, huh?! I myself am proud to say I do no such thing, well partly because I basically didn't grow up with it.
Indeed the christmas atmosphere is hard to resist, until the day before yesterday I was determined to skip the whole christmas tree shenanigan, but once I saw all the ornaments, and heard all the songs I couldn't help getting carried away in the holiday cheer. So tonight my friends I'll be decorating my tree, color coordinately, ranged appropiately, and lighted perfectly, then I'll take a picture and post it.
So whoever u may be and whatever u may be celebrating the end of this year, I hope you're happy and I wish we can all end this year decently, and tonight "slee...eep in heavenly peeeeace......"

Mannagrynmania.

Man I'm so crazy about wheat nowadays! People crave sweets and junkfood, but I've been craving for wheat lately. Wheat cereal, quaker oats, all that stuff, and last night I discovered Mannagrynsgr?t (dunno what its called in english). They're so good especially with chocolate hagelslag, yumm!!! I have to finish this post soon so I can make me some.....(drool).
Movin along, my cell run out of money today, and man did that make me feel soo deserted. Damn technology! We're so dependent on it, what would we do if it all dissapears? I can't live without cellphones, TV, internet, most importantly the electricity needed for all those things plus the phone lines of course.
Speaking of, I want to recommend some new music that I discovered recently, check it out:
Gavin Degraw
Tyler Hilton
there are also a couple that's not new but they're one of my favourites so I wanna promote them, hehe...
Ben Kweller
and OkGo

Toodels!

G'Night!

Well, I've posted 3 posts in like 3 hours, gotta turn off the computer and sleep before I start "playing" with this blog business all over again. I'm just a little over excited about having an outlet to share/express/whatever myself. Anyways thought I'd leave you with a poem I wrote couple o'days ago

Here's a hug I give to you

anytime you're feeling blue

Dreams are far, not out of reach

You're a star, no one can teach

Love will be, where it will be

no matter if the lovers see

You'll find your way, if not today

The clouds will clear, no need to fear.

I was going to post another one but this one is much more positive, and I think it could seem a little incoherent somehow but that's just cause I wrote it for a friend and for her it fits.
Ok then, nighty-nite!

Where to start in the park.

Yesterday I thought "Hm, I should make a blog." So I did. Now I'm all nervous about what to write, what I shouldn't write, what I want or dont want people to know, etc..... When actually I shouldn't over think it, whatever I write is whatever I'm feeling at the moment and if I compromise that because I'm affraid that people will think something of me then I'd be compromising who I am, however corny that might sound. Who knows maybe no one will read it anyways, and the ones that will probably read this are my friends, they know me already so they won't be assuming things (unless I'm just assuming that they won't). Anywho, I thought starting a blog would be an easy way to keep in touch with my friends, cause I'm not very good with the whole correponding business. I want to share my "life" with my pals and sporadic emails here and there does not cover everything that I want to tell them. Now I can write as much as I want, whenever I want to, and y'all can read it whenever you guys want to. Perfect solution, ey!? hehehe....... Ta!